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May 27

A drop in visit
within
from the Word
upon awakening.
Easily heard
& needed.

“And there shall be
stability in your times…”
Isaiah 33:6

A pop in visit
from our old faded
shelled pond friend.

Easily spotted by his
bouncy – bumpy
3 legged gait.
Slowly carefully
taking in another
summer at our place.

Search for ‘Me’ this day.

Take courage.
Be confident.
Certain.
Undaunted.

Seek
inquire for
& require
‘My’ presence.

Yet, the Lord will command
His loving-kindness
in the daytime,
and in the night
His song shall be with me,
a prayer to the God
of my life.
Psalm 42:8

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Well then…

May 21

“ A man should go
where he won’t be tempted.”
{Movie – A Man For All Seasons}

For me…in this season…
i know where i am tempted.
I am tempted to lose hope.
Living in the seen…is how it plays out.
Lack of trusting anticipation…is how it feels.

“…For how can one hope for what he already sees?
But if we hope for what is still unseen by us,
we wait for it with patience and composure.”
Romans 8:24. 25

Hope that is seen should not be called
…hope.
Perhaps this is temptation’s root…
anticipating & trusting only the seen.
Surroundings.
Circumstances.
Plans.

The place i will not be tempted:
engaging my mind around
His controlling
when i can not see
…what’s ahead.

Precisely.
What to do with the seen?
The now.

Trust…i am living in His will.
Laugh…a faithful letting go.
Move…my lips aloud in praise.

May the God of your hope
so fill you with all joy
and peace in believing
[through the experience of your faith]
that by the power of the Holy Spirit
you may abound
and be overflowing
(bubbling over)
with hope.
Romans 15:13

Understand this…
i do not.
Yet

God is making this
have meaning.

He who did not withhold
or spare even His own Son
but gave Him up for us all,
will He not also with Him freely
and graciously give us
all other things?
Romans 8:32

The ultimate Hope.

Beloved, now are we the sons of God,
and it doth not yet appear
what we shall be:
but we know that,
when he shall appear,
we shall be like Him;
for we shall see Him
as He is.
I John 3:2

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Thinkin’

May 15

Just a little strugglin’
goin’ on ‘round here.
It’s been
2 years of saturdays…

with my limited perspective
& creatvity,
thinkin’ things
would be lookin’
differently.

No matter.
N
othin’ can make His Word
untrue
& who am i anyway
to be thinkin’ i know
just how life should look.

Casting the whole of your care
[all your anxieties, all your worries,
all your concerns, once and for all]
on Him,
for He cares for you affectionately
and cares about you watchfully.
I Peter 5:7

Oh…just to be
abidin’ in Him
un-offended by
His way.

And blessed
(happy, fortunate, and to be envied)
is he who takes no offense at Me
and finds no cause for stumbling
in or through Me
and is not hindered
from seeing the Truth.
Matthew 11:6

The daily moments
are teachin’ me
& uncoverin’
a whisperin’ peaceful picture.

“…He will never allow the righteous to be moved.”
Psalm 55:22

Doin’ it for Him.
Dwellin’ with Him.
A rememberin’  that growin’ opportunities
are those lettin’ go opportunities.
The openin’ of the hand
with the promise of enablin’.

“…a way out, by enabling you to sustain it.”
I Corinthians 10:13

A livin’ connected to His limitless resources
in a trustin’ dependence.
never warranted in feelin’
sor
ry for me
& owin’
what is true:
His love for me is limitless.
His will is always love.

“…Yea, I have loved thee with an everlasting love:
therefore with lovingkindness have I drawn thee.”
Jeremiah 31:3

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A Place

May 04

it would be fun
to serve up
something
cute
light to the touch

nonetheless
i simply pour out
the ‘manna’
of the moment
when
lips & actions were
held tightly…
heart numb.

“How long…

How long must I lay up cares
within me

and have sorrow in my heart
day after day…

Consider and answer me,
O Lord my God:


lighten the eyes
of my faith
to behold Your face…

I have trusted,
leaned on,
and been confident
in Your mercy
and loving-kindness;

my heart shall rejoice
and be in high spirits
in Your salvation.

I will sing to the Lord,
because
He has dealt
bountifully
with me.”
Psalm 13

Warm tears.
Release.

“He makes my feet like hinds’ feet
and will make me to walk…
and make spiritual progress
upon my high places of
…responsibility!”
Habakkuk 3:19

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Somewhere.

Apr 30

He gives power to the faint and weary,
and to him who has no might He increases strength
causing it to multiply and making it to abound. Isaiah 40:29

God sees the end of the thing from the beginning.

Declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times
the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand,
and I will do all my pleasure. Isaiah 46:10

Somewhere close to the beginning

…upon bringing him home after 75 days of acute hospital care
with everything experienced
unknown.
Journal…ed words from the heart.


May I enjoy life just as you give it to me.
Make me a beautiful soul serving Jesus out of acts of love.
…even in the ordinary, unpoetic life,
with its wear and tear. {BRS}

The days are too long…lonely…slow.
Transition.
Bear with me Lord.
The complexity of it all is ever a reminder of where I am
and how far we have to go.
Protect me from the memories.
May I look before & leave gracefully the thoughts
of the life I adore…d.
Allow me to stand this ground
and make you proud. {BRS}


They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb…
they did not love their lives as much
as to shrink from death.  Revelation 12:11
Rise.
Face circumstances of God’s  providential placing.
The difficult unseen places deep within the soul
only Jesus sees.
The unmentioned.
An explosion of the heart. {BRS}

Somewhere after the beginning

There hath no temptation taken you
but such as is common to man:
but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted
above that ye are able;
but will with the temptation also make a way to escape,
that ye may be able to bear it. I Corinthians  10:13
Claiming I will not be tempted to run
away…
or
doubt
“…all things work together and are fitting into a plan for good…”
Romans 8:28
The temptation to settle for the visible things. {BRS}

“You take care of him. I will take care of you.”
i heard.

Somewhere farther from the beginning

I love the Lord, because He has heard and now hears
my voice and my supplication.

Because He has inclined His ear to me
therefore will I call upon Him as long as I live.

The cords and sorrows of death were around me…
I suffered anguish and grief trouble and sorrow.

Then called I upon the name of the Lord:
O Lord, I beseech You, save my life and deliver me.

Gracious is the Lord and rigidly righteous;
yes, our God is merciful.

The Lord preserves the simple;
I was brought low,
and He helped and saved me.

Return to your rest, O my soul,
for the Lord has dealt bountifully with you.

I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living.

I believed trusted in, relied on and clung to my God
and therefore have I spoken even when I said I am greatly afflicted.

What shall I render to the Lord for all His benefits toward me?
How can I repay Him for all His bountiful dealings?

I will lift up the cup of salvation and deliverance
and call on the name of the Lord. Psalm 116:1-12

I will offer to You the sacrifice of thanksgiving
and will call on the name of the Lord. Psalm 116:17

…if displeasure is not pleasure but pain,
then one must agree it can dispirit the heart…
let it go…slip out of mind…turn to a Truth
that brings pleasure & fasten thoughts there…

“Hold thee still in the Lord and abide patiently…”  Psalm 37:5

Somewhere just behind the present

The well worn path of excessive
trying to figure it all out
is simply rooted in being afraid
to trust.
Relying upon God is like the stitching up of a seam.
A bonding.
Me bonded to God by trusting.
Simple.
Accept…wrestle…no longer.
Disappointed.
Yes.
Bitter.
No.
Trust the power of  the Word. {BRS}

Somewhere close

i “Cry Aloud, spare not…
Yet they seek, inquire for, and require Me daily
and delight to know My ways…”
Isaiah 58:1, 2

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Within & Without

Apr 26

Thy Word
a window.

Revealing what is within & what is without.
Shedding light.

“Uphold me according unto Thy Word, that I may live…” Psalm 119:116

Revealing…come what may.

Awakened in the night with
such clarity
such comfort.
Be merciful unto me, O God, be merciful unto me:
for my soul trusteth in thee:
yea, in the shadow of thy wings will I make my refuge,
until these calamities be overpast. Psalm 57:1
Repeated. Repeated. Repeated.
All so true.
Yet that last phrase

“…until these calamities overpast.”

…and the anticipation of those things unseen.
…and to not awaken to a grief I can actually hear inside.
Audible words cut into the dark quiet air.
Yes…Thank you.
A simple response affirming trust
within circumstances.
Yet the
without has not “overpast”.

“What else to do when the landscape changes?
When all mirrors tilt?”
{Peace Like A River. Lief Enger. “Peeking at Eternity”.}

“Let be and be still, and know that I am God…” Psalm 46:10

Thy Word
a window.

Truth revealed within.

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Like Alfalfa.

Apr 23

My moisture does not evaporate.

But I am like a green olive tree in the house of God;
I trust in and confidently rely on the loving-kindness
and the mercy of God forever and ever. Psalm 52:8

Fast. Loud. Free.
A tractor ride with willing son to a nearby field
outlined by wild rich alfalfa.

Strong busy arms take the time

for another.

Hungry horses unknowingly wait for something
lush, moist & green.

Of course, not recognizing their need
until

placed freely before them.

Then fed.

So like God.

Yet I taught Ephraim to walk, taking them by their arms
or taking them up in My arms,
but they did not know that I healed them.
I drew them with cords of a man, with bands of love,
and I was to them as one who lifts up
and eases the yoke over their cheeks,
and I bent down to them
and gently laid food before them. Hosea 11:3, 4

Us…picking wild alfalfa…once…together.

Thank you Son for taking your mother.
My stallion finding joy knowing I went out…
Still thinking of me.

God too expresses kindnesses toward me.
Yes even now.
I  am
watching & allowing  God to orchestrate the events of the day,
with my mind spinning less,
preoccupied with less planning;
which can emerge as an idol
of control
easily recognized by a word.
Yoke.
I am
going on…in simplicity.
Walking not considering how to walk…
Running not considering how to run…
lest I get stuck
in a ditch.
Tasting contentment in the unknown with His easing of the load.
Abundantly satisfied although…a hurting.
A double life found true only by casting all upon Him.

More kindnesses.
More of my favorites

join the feeding fun.

My moisture does not evaporate.
Fed by His rich free nourishing presence & kindnesses.
Like Alfalfa.
Why am I surprised when fed.
So rich. So simple.

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