Somewhere.

Apr 30

He gives power to the faint and weary,
and to him who has no might He increases strength
causing it to multiply and making it to abound. Isaiah 40:29

God sees the end of the thing from the beginning.

Declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times
the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand,
and I will do all my pleasure. Isaiah 46:10

Somewhere close to the beginning

…upon bringing him home after 75 days of acute hospital care
with everything experienced
unknown.
Journal…ed words from the heart.


May I enjoy life just as you give it to me.
Make me a beautiful soul serving Jesus out of acts of love.
…even in the ordinary, unpoetic life,
with its wear and tear. {BRS}

The days are too long…lonely…slow.
Transition.
Bear with me Lord.
The complexity of it all is ever a reminder of where I am
and how far we have to go.
Protect me from the memories.
May I look before & leave gracefully the thoughts
of the life I adore…d.
Allow me to stand this ground
and make you proud. {BRS}


They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb…
they did not love their lives as much
as to shrink from death.  Revelation 12:11
Rise.
Face circumstances of God’s  providential placing.
The difficult unseen places deep within the soul
only Jesus sees.
The unmentioned.
An explosion of the heart. {BRS}

Somewhere after the beginning

There hath no temptation taken you
but such as is common to man:
but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted
above that ye are able;
but will with the temptation also make a way to escape,
that ye may be able to bear it. I Corinthians  10:13
Claiming I will not be tempted to run
away…
or
doubt
“…all things work together and are fitting into a plan for good…”
Romans 8:28
The temptation to settle for the visible things. {BRS}

“You take care of him. I will take care of you.”
i heard.

Somewhere farther from the beginning

I love the Lord, because He has heard and now hears
my voice and my supplication.

Because He has inclined His ear to me
therefore will I call upon Him as long as I live.

The cords and sorrows of death were around me…
I suffered anguish and grief trouble and sorrow.

Then called I upon the name of the Lord:
O Lord, I beseech You, save my life and deliver me.

Gracious is the Lord and rigidly righteous;
yes, our God is merciful.

The Lord preserves the simple;
I was brought low,
and He helped and saved me.

Return to your rest, O my soul,
for the Lord has dealt bountifully with you.

I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living.

I believed trusted in, relied on and clung to my God
and therefore have I spoken even when I said I am greatly afflicted.

What shall I render to the Lord for all His benefits toward me?
How can I repay Him for all His bountiful dealings?

I will lift up the cup of salvation and deliverance
and call on the name of the Lord. Psalm 116:1-12

I will offer to You the sacrifice of thanksgiving
and will call on the name of the Lord. Psalm 116:17

…if displeasure is not pleasure but pain,
then one must agree it can dispirit the heart…
let it go…slip out of mind…turn to a Truth
that brings pleasure & fasten thoughts there…

“Hold thee still in the Lord and abide patiently…”  Psalm 37:5

Somewhere just behind the present

The well worn path of excessive
trying to figure it all out
is simply rooted in being afraid
to trust.
Relying upon God is like the stitching up of a seam.
A bonding.
Me bonded to God by trusting.
Simple.
Accept…wrestle…no longer.
Disappointed.
Yes.
Bitter.
No.
Trust the power of  the Word. {BRS}

Somewhere close

i “Cry Aloud, spare not…
Yet they seek, inquire for, and require Me daily
and delight to know My ways…”
Isaiah 58:1, 2

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Within & Without

Apr 26

Thy Word
a window.

Revealing what is within & what is without.
Shedding light.

“Uphold me according unto Thy Word, that I may live…” Psalm 119:116

Revealing…come what may.

Awakened in the night with
such clarity
such comfort.
Be merciful unto me, O God, be merciful unto me:
for my soul trusteth in thee:
yea, in the shadow of thy wings will I make my refuge,
until these calamities be overpast. Psalm 57:1
Repeated. Repeated. Repeated.
All so true.
Yet that last phrase

“…until these calamities overpast.”

…and the anticipation of those things unseen.
…and to not awaken to a grief I can actually hear inside.
Audible words cut into the dark quiet air.
Yes…Thank you.
A simple response affirming trust
within circumstances.
Yet the
without has not “overpast”.

“What else to do when the landscape changes?
When all mirrors tilt?”
{Peace Like A River. Lief Enger. “Peeking at Eternity”.}

“Let be and be still, and know that I am God…” Psalm 46:10

Thy Word
a window.

Truth revealed within.

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Like Alfalfa.

Apr 23

My moisture does not evaporate.

But I am like a green olive tree in the house of God;
I trust in and confidently rely on the loving-kindness
and the mercy of God forever and ever. Psalm 52:8

Fast. Loud. Free.
A tractor ride with willing son to a nearby field
outlined by wild rich alfalfa.

Strong busy arms take the time

for another.

Hungry horses unknowingly wait for something
lush, moist & green.

Of course, not recognizing their need
until

placed freely before them.

Then fed.

So like God.

Yet I taught Ephraim to walk, taking them by their arms
or taking them up in My arms,
but they did not know that I healed them.
I drew them with cords of a man, with bands of love,
and I was to them as one who lifts up
and eases the yoke over their cheeks,
and I bent down to them
and gently laid food before them. Hosea 11:3, 4

Us…picking wild alfalfa…once…together.

Thank you Son for taking your mother.
My stallion finding joy knowing I went out…
Still thinking of me.

God too expresses kindnesses toward me.
Yes even now.
I  am
watching & allowing  God to orchestrate the events of the day,
with my mind spinning less,
preoccupied with less planning;
which can emerge as an idol
of control
easily recognized by a word.
Yoke.
I am
going on…in simplicity.
Walking not considering how to walk…
Running not considering how to run…
lest I get stuck
in a ditch.
Tasting contentment in the unknown with His easing of the load.
Abundantly satisfied although…a hurting.
A double life found true only by casting all upon Him.

More kindnesses.
More of my favorites

join the feeding fun.

My moisture does not evaporate.
Fed by His rich free nourishing presence & kindnesses.
Like Alfalfa.
Why am I surprised when fed.
So rich. So simple.

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While

Apr 21

A growing out of
who i was
&
who we were
into
who i am
&
who we are…
in Him.


Past life muzzled & hushed,


possessing the present
immediately.


“…I will strengthen and harden you to difficulties…” Isaiah 41:10
Isaiah 41:10
“Nevertheless I am continually with You;  You do hold my right hand.”
Psalm 73:23


Giving Jesus access to this place,
while writing becomes prayer.

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Where is My Yes

Apr 15

Am I

letting life pointlessly loom larger than His power within,
denying the grit He gives to do the next thing,
forgetting the one thing that is ask of me – gratitude.

This too is sin.

The temptation to say no…not this.

Seek, inquire of and for the Lord, and crave Him and His strength (His might and inflexibility to temptation); seek and require His face and His presence  ever more. Psalm 105:4

Then can you lift up your face to Him without stain; yes, you shall be steadfast and secure; you shall not fear. Job 11:15

Oh…so…no
…is failure to rest securely in my life…in Him.

I too possess  “His might and inflexibility to temptation”.

I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I that live, but Christ living in me: and that life which I now live in the flesh I live in faith, the faith which is in the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself up for me. Galations 2:20


Behold, God, my salvation! I will trust and not be afraid, for the Lord God is my strength and song; yes, He has become my salvation. Isaiah 12:2

For the Son of God, Jesus Christ, who was preached among you by me and Silas and Timothy, was not “Yes” and “No,” but in him it has always been “Yes.” II Corinthians 1:19

The lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; yes, I have a good heritage. Psalm 16:6

“…I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the Lord.” Psalm 27:6

“ …yes, I will sing aloud of Your mercy and loving-kindness in the morning…” Psalm 59:16

Yes, the Lord will give what is good…” Psalm 85:12

“ …They said to Him, Yes, Lord.” Matthew 13:51

“ …Yes, Father, for such was Your gracious will and choice and good pleasure.” Luke 10:21

For as many as are the promises of God, they all find their Yes in Him. For this reason we also utter the Amen to God through Him to the glory of God. II Corinthians 1:20

Where is my yes…

a life lived in Yes…
found in Him.

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